OVERWHELMING


Sometimes I feel my words reveal too much
are too intense
overwhelming

and sometimes I think they are not strong enough
to explain the storm that rages on
inside of me
overwhelming

I'll print out my thoughts
dreams
and desires
I'll show you my demons
without pause
without a thought
that you might have
too many of your own
to deal with mine

Mistakes are plenty
but corrections always follow
The first time I let you down
you let me know
I had found the one thing
I would regret losing

which is always overwhelming

I've begun to see patterns in life
that I don't like
the order to the disorder
is striking
rather overwhelming

This persistent trembling
inside of my chest
like the motor of my love
and longing 
for completion
for truth


Only I can see 
that forever is going to be
a long time coming
and the bearer of bad news 
is always the ostracized
cast out 
to pick wishes
off of the sale rack

Finish the thought you started 
two years ago
Remember the pain
and you will discover the truth

it is overwhelming